Trusting the U-Turns of Life

Well, December 21 came and went, and the world did not end. Big surprise, right? It’s a good thing because I have a lot of plans for 2013. I want to lose some weight, clean the top of my pantry which is piled with stuff and maybe even get a pedicure before spring. Plans, meaningful plans. My to-do list is loaded, you see, and I need more time to get it all done.

That’s the crazy thing about my life. I like to make plans. I like to organize things, make lists, and know exactly what lies ahead. I like to be in control of my life, and go where I want to go when I want to go there. The only problem is that God keeps forcing me to make U-Turns, and He leads me down unknown paths in known areas which really scares me.

Many years ago, I had plans to travel to Europe for a semester or two after my college graduation. I wasn’t sure where, but I knew I would go. Then I met Mike, and well, let’s just say that Europe took a second seat to getting engaged and making plans with my future husband. U-turn.

I planned to live in the suburbs but married a farmer, so we live on a farm. U-turn.
I began a career in marketing and had plans to move up the ladder and then discovered that motherhood was calling my name much louder than I expected. God made me a mom, and my life forever changed paths. I left full-time work for full-time motherhood and began to teach college part-time. U-turn.

I began to write and discovered I love speaking form my heart to anyone who will listen. The written word became my song, and I began to write for several magazines, started a newspaper column and wrote a few books. God opened some amazing doors as my books were published and my speaking career was launched. I left my part-time teaching position to give me more time to write, and thought my new path was clear with several book contracts in hand. Then, a year later, the publisher canceled my remaining book contracts and I was left unemployed. U-turn.

I went back to teaching and was blessed with a full-time job. Thinking my career path was now secure, I began work on my doctorate. Enrollment declined and the university let me go. I was a teacher without a class, and wondered why. U-turn.

I have now gone back to part-time teaching and am completing my doctorate anyways. God opened a wonderful door for me at Walsh University, and I am blessed to be there. But I am left wondering what 2013 will bring. 

Will I be able to complete my doctorate? Will I get a full-time job offer? Will I stay healthy? Will Mike and the kids all stay healthy? What about my parents, Mike’s parents? Will our children stay close to God? Will our refrigerator break?

I am truly left with more questions than answers, and feeling more out of control than in. I have no idea what 2013 will bring, and though that may seem scary at times, it also seems exciting. I need to let go of my agenda and trust God for my tomorrows.

For I know the plans I have for you, says the Lord, plans for a hope and a future. (Jeremiah 29:11) I may not know what 2013 will hold, and neither do you. But we can walk by faith into the unknown and trust the One who leads us there. We can all trust the U-turns in our lives, and maybe even enjoy the ride.

Happy New Year!

Posted by Trish Berg 10:00 AM  


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