Fashioning My LIfe
Tuesday, August 17, 2010
I found some unique things in there, things I should have gotten rid of a long time ago. I began by pulling everything out and dumping it all in a pile on my bed. Then one at a time, I looked over each piece and decided which pile it should go in.
One pile was the keeper-pile. Clothing that is in style, fits me, and looks great on. The second pile the give-away pile. Clothing that no longer fits me but can bless someone else. And finally, the third pile is the throw-away pile. Clothing that has seen better days and simply needs to be thrown out.
One by one, I evaluated each outfit and tossed it in the appropriate pile. But as I sorted through my closet, my mind began to wander over my other closet – my heart.
My heart is the closet of my life. Where I store every bit of emotion that guides me daily. I started to realize that my heart was as cluttered as my closet and it was time to clean it out.
As I searched my heart, I found some bitterness, way out-dated; towards people I had thought I had forgiven a long time ago. I am not sure that bitterness even fits me anymore, yet I keep it in my heart just in case I feel like wearing it out on a lonely, rainy day when I want to feel sorry for myself.
I also found some anger in there, long since outdated. Anger for things that had been done to me, times I was left out, towards people I no longer see.
Way in the back corner of my heart was some hand-me-down insecurity that I inherited from my dad from my little-girl years when his words and lack of acceptance hurt me to the core. Those insecurities don’t even fit me anymore.
There was much more in there, far too many outfits to mention. I decided it was time to clean out my heart and make room for the new outfits in my life, the ones that fit my soul and make me who I want to become.
So I sat down and unpacked my heart, I pulled out everything that was in there and tossed it into one massive pile. As I went though each emotion one by one, I looked over each piece and decided which pile it should go in.
One pile was the keeper pile. These are the emotions I want to keep, feelings I want to live my life wearing. Things like faith, love, joy and hope. These outfits never go out of style and always fit perfectly (no matter how much weight you might have gained).
The second pile is the give-away pile. These are the outfits I need to give away to those in my life because they may not fit me perfectly but they can bless someone else. Things like forgiveness, acceptance and encouragement.
And finally, the third pile is the throw-away pile. These are the outfits that have been cluttering my heart in the deepest corners. Things that have seen better days and simply need to be thrown out. Things like bitterness, anger and insecurity.
I spent the day cleaning out my closet and ended up cleaning out my heart. Now they are both full of styles that will fashion my life.
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Posted by Trish Berg 5:00 AM
Labels: Graphic Publications Column, Joy in the Journey Column, The Bargain Hunter, Wooster Weekly News
